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Disappointment

By Destiney McIntosh

There’s a beauty in the things that I was saved from

That I thought were meant for me

But were not meant to be

There was a danger there that I was kept from

Not just physical danger

But pride rested there

Sin rested there

Wickedness rested

In the things I thought I should have

God had a better plan

Where I would see him more

Be called to lean on him

The beauty in the things I was saved from?

They were small compared to what God had waiting for me

My thoughts can’t compare to his

My way can’t compare to his

Those disappointments

Were a redirection

For GREATER purpose

God’s plan

-5.16.19

In 2017 I bought my first car, a 2003 Chevy Impala. When I saw it, I thought it was meant to be because I had always said that I wanted my first car to be either a Chevy Impala or a Monte Carlo. This car was literally the car that I wanted.

The reality was, that that car would only last for five months before it broke down. I think back on that summer, and how I had been putting money into repairing that car. It seemed like after I fixed one thing, something else would come up wrong with the car. Then came the challenge of trying to find someone who could repair the car, after I had gotten fed up with the mechanic I had been dealing with. Why was I putting so much into this car? At the time I thought it was the only way. The only solution I saw to the problem was fixing the car. I didn’t see another way out.

Until I was told that basically there was nothing that I could do to fix the car.

I remember being so frustrated, so confused, so discouraged. Wondering why things weren’t working out. Asking God how I was going to be able to make it without my car because I needed it for so many things, not just myself, but my family relied on it too.

I didn’t know that there was a bigger plan. That by the end of that summer, I would be able to affordably finance a car, that though it had been branded as a used car, it had only been out for a year and only had 9,000 miles on it.

I was desperately clinging onto my broken down 2003 Chevy Impala because I didn’t see the 2016 Kia Forte that God had planned to bless me with.

I think a lot of the time that is how disappointment works. There are situations that aren’t working out that we are hesitant to let go of because we don’t see any other way, we think it’s meant to hurt us when in reality God wants to make room for something bigger.

This doesn’t negate the blessing that once was. That Impala was a blessing for a season. But it was just that. It was for a season.

I see that lesson happening again in my life. In the aftermath of chaos, confusion and discouragement, I am gaining the courage to let go of something that I placed so much value and importance in, for the possibility of what God has for me. Moving forward from this season, into my next.

So God I pray for obedience in your direction. I pray for clarity in your way. Lord your word says to be led not by confusion, but hope in you. That by strength in you we can step forward. God I call that power to my side as I prepare to move forward in your name. Lord I yield to your way. To be released from what has kept me bound in order to make room for what you have planned for me, to be released into the promises that you have set for me. I pray the same for anyone reading this who needs it. May your glory, your way, your plan have the victory. It is in the name of your Son Jesus that I pray. Amen.

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